Thursday, October 19, 2017

The Next Chapter

A few months ago I decided to shut down this blog. I did it quietly assuming no one would notice. Almost immediately, I started getting messages from people asking what happened. The truth is my heart isn't in it anymore. Yet, I feel like I need to sign off properly. I started this blog as a way to document my journey as a new mom. Then, I started writing more about my love of running and connected with new "running friends" from around the world. I even charged the name of it to reflect that. My little corner of the internet became "Kaella On The Run."
  
The truth is, running got me through my divorce and keeping up the blog and my presence on social media was a big part of that. It was the hardest time in my life. I look back now and realize just how much pain I was in. I was putting on a brave front, for most people, but inside I was deeply grieving the loss of something I wanted so badly to work. I wanted to be a wife. I wanted to be a mom with a house full of children to keep me busy. I just picked the wrong person to do that with. Running helped me realize that I could get through anything. I surrounded myself with good people, I got counselling, and I continued to be the best mom to London.

I also continue to have a good relationship with his dad. That was important to me from day one. I respect his dad and I knew having him in his life was the best thing for him. Their relationship is stronger because of it. 

I did date, a little. I went on a handful of dates; some were bad some were okay but none of them were great. That's when I decided to take two years off from any relationships and just focus on myself and what I wanted. I got my personal training certification and started coaching at Orangetheory Fitness. I also started my Marathon Coach certification and started a running club. I went on vacations with friends and I spent more time with family.

They always say it'll happen when you least expect it. When every other aspect of your life is going so well life throws something, or in this case someone, special at you.
If you follow me on social media you may have noticed this guy making an appearance over the past year. Andrew is kind, funny, smart, and passionate. I wrote a list of qualities I want in a partner a few months before we met and he has all of them and more. Best of all, he's great with London and London adores him. Clearly he makes me happier than I have ever been.


So, while I can't predict the future I will say I'm so happy. I love my life and the people I have in it.
That's why I decided to step away from blogging, from posting all my workouts online, from reading other blogs and focus on what is right in front of me. I've put down my phone and am living in the moment. 

I'm so blessed.

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