Friday, October 11, 2013

Inspired: Things You'll Never Remember

Today's post was inspired by my friend Katiie's post to her girls.

If I try to think back to my first memory it was when I was four or five and I am swimming in my Nana and Gaga's pool. I can remember moving from Ontario to BC when I was in kindergarten and going to Disneyland when I was six. I don't remember anything before that though.

It makes me a little sad that you won't remember your first year. I'm returning to work in exactly a month which means things are going to change around here. You won't remember spending almost every moment of the last 365 days with me. I think the longest we've been apart is 3.5-4 hours and that was only twice. Otherwise, it's been an hour or two maybe a dozen times. I love spending time with you.

Thankfully, friends Katie and Tawnya inspired me to blog so I have some of our special days written down for you to enjoy later in life. The things that aren't documented in those posts are moments I will never forget.

I'll never forget waking up to you every morning. Even if you start the night in your crib or bassinet you always end up in our bed. You are the first thing I see every morning. You are so cute when you're sleepy. You only want me until I nurse you then you have smiles for everyone. 

I'll never forget singing silly songs, blowing raspberries on your tummy and pretending to eat your feet to distract you from thousands of diaper changes. You giggling is one of the best sounds in the world.

I'll never forget lazy days spent cuddling on the couch for hours on end.

I'll never forget curling up with you for your morning nap and watching your eyes slowly close and your breathing slow down. We always spend yor morning nap together. I never rush to get ready or make myself do anything else but hold you. Sometimes I catch up on a show I have pvr'd or write a new blog post (like now) but you're always in my arms while I do so.

I'll never forget wrapping my arms around you and squeezing you tight and kissing your forehead, multiple times a day, and feeling like the luckiest person in the whole world. I never knew it was possible to love someone as much as I love you.

I'll never forget having breakfast together, every morning, and "chair" dancing when music comes on during whatever show I have flipped on (you especially like XFactor and Dancing With The Stars.)

I'll never forget this past year sweet boy. I've been so blessed to spend it with you and watch you grow from that tiny baby to a toddler! I wish, so much, I could stay home with you for longer but I have to go back to work. I hope you know just how much I love you and how everything I do is for you and because of you. 

Nana will be taking care of you while I go back to work and I couldn't think of someone who will love you more. She is the next best person, after mommy and daddy, to help raise you. 

I will miss you so much it hurts to think about but I will always remember our first year together and how special it was. I love you so much baby boy.

Love Mommy

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