Sunday, April 26, 2015

11 miles, 2 empty net goals & Too many drinks- Weekend in Review

Friday night, after work, my boss offered to take me out for a drink. We decided to go to Browns Socialhouse and ended up ordering supper too. It was great to unwind after a busy week!

Saturday, I had 11 miles on my training plan. I didn't set my alarm, for Marathon Club, so if I slept in I would run the mileage solo. I woke up at 7:30 and decided to use the run to try out my race day strategy. I ate two waffles (with peanut butter and syrup) and sat down to watch The Mindy Project while it digested. 

Around 10:30, I put on my race-day outfit, loaded up with water and gels and headed out. It was a cool morning (and I thought it was going to rain) but I opted to run with sleeves instead of a jacket.

It only took about 15 minutes for me to warm up but I wasn't feeling it. My legs were tired and I just wanted to quit. I had to keep telling myself that tough training runs make for strong races!

Thankfully, I made it t through the mileage at a decent pace. It was actually my longest run since Phoenix!!

I spent the next few hours eating and relaxing at home before meeting up with Melis to watch some playoff hockey. I'm not a huge hockey fan but I will cheer on my hometown club in the post-season. We headed to Hudsons, around 6:45, and scored one of the last spots!

Melis suggested we do shots for every Canucks goal. Well, they scored 3 times in 10 times AND we had been ordering double highballs! By 8:30, we were both feeling good!!

Sadly, Vancouver lost but we still had fun and the Flames fans weren't too mean to us! We actually ended up getting a handful of free shots sent our way!

Leighann (friend and running buddy) joined us for a couple hours and then a few other girlfriends dropped by! It was a fun (late) night!! My car ended up having an unplanned sleepover! 

This morning, I was not feeling too hot! I was up at 7:30 and threw on my pro compressions and tried to eat something while watching more Mindy Project (loving season 2!)

Jarod brought London over at 11:30 and tried to fix my treadmill (wire was accidentally cut during the move so I need a new one or a new treadmill) and my bbq (it works--yay!) 

We watched a movie while London napped then headed out for a bike ride to the park.

We ended up having supper as a family and then a second supper with some of London's "friends."

This kid!!

Oh, and this is what happens when you turn around for 30 seconds!!

Yes, he's wearing Woody's hat!! Hahaha! 

I hope you had a great weekend too!! 

Friday, April 24, 2015

I'm Not A Part-Time Mom

I drove by London's daycare, earlier this week, and saw him waiting by the window for me. His little hands were pressed against the glass and his eyes scanned the street looking for my car. It's the way he often greets me at the end of the day except it wasn't my day to pick him up.

I went for a run and cried. I had my music turned up, as loud as it could go, but nothing could drown out my sobbing.

Before his dad and I separated, I dropped London off, and picked him, every day. I was the one who, in the beginning, wiped away his tears, peeled his arms off my legs, and promised him he would have fun. I would be strong, until I got in the car, and then my tears would start flowing. I missed him and I worried about him. 

It got easier until it got harder again.

Now, pickup and drop offs are split 50/50. Our limited time together (5pm to 8pm bedtime) is now cut in half.  

Something I've struggled with lately is trying to find my identity as a mother again. I went from doing (almost) everything to having more alone time than I would ever know what to do with. 

I also struggled with what I should call myself.

Am I a single mom? Am I a part-time mom? What am I?

Honestly, I don't want any of those titles.

 I just want to be London's mommy. 

London is the first thing I think about before I go to sleep and as soon as I wake up. Every day he's not with me, I worry about him; I wonder, if he's brushed his teeth, what he's having for breakfast and if he's wearing jacket to play outside. I worry if he needs his nails cut, if he has drank enough water and, mostly importantly, if he feels loved and happy. 

I worry about where he thinks I am, if he looks for me when he needs comforting and how these changes will affect him in the future.  He told his daddy "I just want to go home. The one with mommy and daddy." He's also started to ask for a baby sister now too. I never imagined he would be an only child. 

I always have a purse full of diapers, wipes, snacks and juice boxes. 

I have a calendar filled with his appointments, fun activities I've planned for us and important days at daycare.

I have his photos plastered on my desk, all over my social media sites and hundreds stored in my phone.

So, even though I'm not with him as much as I want to be I know that doesn't change who I am.

I will always be his mommy.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Thinking Out Loud #14

Time to link up with Amanda for "Thinking Out Loud." If you don't know how it works check out her first post. Basically, it's a chance for you to get all your random thoughts out and then link up with others doing the same.

1. I booked my flights for New York City!!! I still get incredibly nervous when I think about running a marathon but I think that's because I haven't started training. Now, that my flights, and hotels, are booked it is started to feel real. Now, I just have to decide what else to do while I'm there (besides running a marathon of course!) ;)
2. I have a new Netflix addiction. Since, I don't have cable I've been spending my London-free time watching The Mindy Project. I feel like I can relate to the main character. I'm a sucker from romantic comedies and sometimes have unrealistic expectations of love. I have been binge-watching the show and am almost done season 1 after just three nights. 

3. This Post about working moms had me crying at my desk. I actually wrote a draft about something similar, last night, but haven't decided whether or not to publish it. It's raw people!! Plus, it's totally out of my usually posting comfort zone. 
4. I'm planning on buying London this bike. I don't have the money saved up, right now, but I think he would love it. We spend most of our nights walking, or running, to the park and I would love to teach him how to ride a bike. He has a Striker now but I want him to practice on something with pedals. Plus, I'm pretty sure he would lose his mind over a hockey bike!! 
5. There are only 6 days left in my online auction. To date, I'm close to 900 dollars raised in bids and 1100 dollars online. I would LOVE to see it get to 2000 total before April 30th. There are still a few items that don't have bids. I would love if I could find them all homes. Please consider making a making a bid HEREmaking a donation to my Team For Kids page HERE or sharing with family and friends. Your support is appreciated!! I promise to stop spamming you with requests soon!! I'm almost at my fundraising goal! 

6. My dining room table, that a friend built for me, is arriving tomorrow. I can't wait to have a proper place to sit down and eat again! My new house is slowly starting to feel like home. I still have to hang a few things, design a gallery wall and find, and paint, dining room chairs. I would also LOVE a headboard but don't want to pay 300-500 dollars! I'm hoping to recruit some handy DIY friends to help me create something on my budget.

7. I'm so happy London is home. We went to see the Harlem Globetrotters last night and had a blast! 




I hope everyone has a great weekend!!  Marathon club, Saturday, includes 11 miles and the weather is supposed to be gorgeous! I can't wait!